So close, but still out of reach!

I got all my pretesting done, but because I got caught behind an accident I had to rescdedule my nutrition class for Jan 3rd, 2010. I know everything happens for a reason. I guess there must of been a good one for this, too. Now I just have my Nutrition class, my visit with my Dietitian, and then my last consulation visit with my Surgeon. I guess it would be too much to ask them to schedule it on January 3rd. I just want to get the ball rolling.

Back on Track

It took a little while but Im back on track to getting healthy. Today is step one to getting my lapband. Im having the first of my pretests done. Wednesday I have to be at Emory Midtown to my EGD done at 7 (OMG that means we have to leave at like 5am ) Am and then next Monday I have a full day including my Nutrition Class, visit with my Dietictian, and final pretests.

After that I will meet with my Surgeon again, and we will arrange my surgery date. It's happening very fast now. After almost a year of waiting its coming full force. I'm ready though. I want to get healthy.

Tomorrow's a new day!

I'm going grocery shopping tomorrow, and looking forward to getting some healthy things in this house. The fried chicken we had for dinner was really good, but I didn't need the carbs.
I'm going to have to talk to the whole family about eating healthy, again. We have really slacked off in the past few months.

Amazingly enough my teenage daughter has continued to lose weight even though we haven't been making the best meals. She has lost, 26 lbs, in the past year now. I wish 26 lbs made the difference on me that it has on her. She looks really good. Im glad for her, I really didnt want her to spend her teenage years being overweight. You have so many other issues going on, you just dont need that one, too.

Approval and a Set Back

I got approved through insurance but I havent had the money to pay the program fee to get myself going. Everytime I think maybe we can make a payment, something more important comes up.

I was eating really healthy for a while, but when I was at the Doctors office today I am back up to 311 lbs. So Ive gained about 11 lbs since January. Not a Good thing at all.

I cant do it until I can buy some groceries ( just a few days) but Im really going to start watching my carbs again. I was feeling so much better when I was getting healthier. I know eating carbs is bad for my diabetes,too.

My Good Friend Tracy is working on a new project. She has motivated me to do something good for me, too.

Finally got my Appointment with the Surgeon!

The ball is rolling, finally. I go see the Lapband Surgeon next week, February 3rd. I got paperwork today telling me exactly what my insurance requires from me for approval.

1. Letter of medical necessity from my primary care physican, must have current height, weight, BMI, and co-morbid condtions related to morbid obesity.
2. Psychological Evalutaion and Clearance with a licensed psychologist.
3. Diet History created by patient with past weight loss attempts.
4. Surgeon's Consult.

As I began to write out my Diet History I could see how illnesses had affected my weight. I don't want to die young. Its really important to me that I get the band, and get healthy. I want to get away from all the health risks in my life, Heart disease, Diabetes, High Blood pressure. This has got to happen. Its a matter of life or death.

Diabetes and the Lapband Seminar

I am so psyched! I loved the Seminar, and I love Emory Bariatic Center. All my questions were answers. I was even able to ask if we were suggested to do a Pre-op Liquid Diet. ( Which we are to shrink our Fatty Livers down.)

I called to make my Step 2 appointment but they had not processed the paperwork from the Seminar yet. I like, let's get on with it People! But I'm trying to be patient. I have to do a Weight history, and a Diet History. I discovered my Weight has been steady since 2006. Really has not moved until this past fall when I gained 30 lbs. I'm thinking the Diabetes was the reason was the weight gain.

OH. I was Diagonsed with Diabetes two weeks ago. yeah, fun fun fun. But so far I'm controlling it with monitoring and diet. My blood glucose this morning was 99!!! Woot! Woot! I really want to kick this disease. I know when I get this fat off me I have a higher chance of staying off the meds but its just a chance. Diabetes doesn't discriminate. Thin people get Diabetes, too. I will want to get this under control.

Truth is I'm mad! I don't want to have to check my sugar 5 times a day for the rest of my life. Dang it, I didn't do enough and it got me. I have the Genetics, I knew it was coming, I was half ass trying to change my eating habits, losing a little bit of weight, and waiting to get a lapband. But I haven't been exercising. I was still eating a lot of sugar, and carbs. I was eating a ton of pasta. I cut back on the soda, fast food, fried foods, and it showed. I was losing weight. Where ever that 30 lbs came from that I gained this fall, I've took it and 10 more off. But, Not in time.

I feel like I'm in the grips of a giant clawwed Lobster that won't let go ever. I know the Lapband is going to help me get healthy but I really crushed about the Diabetes. My Dad died from complications from Diabetes. He didn't take care of himself. He ate what he wanted, and alter his insulin to what he ate. I know you can't do it. I saw the effects. The amputation, the blindness, the neuropathy. I'm not going to end my life like his. If nothing else he motivated me to do differently.

That's why I have to get my Lapband, and get this Fat off me. I'm ready now! I wanna get Healthy now!